This super gorgeous girl I work with who is like a bartender in the lounge and is a couple months older than me turned to me today and out of blue went, “You look really pretty today!” I almost died. I was like omg no you! haha.
The rediculous thing which is super true, is people hear too rarely good things and compliments about themselves. Sure people comment on fb pictures and stuff sometimes, but who tells you face to face for no reason that you look nice?
it’s so stupid. I just got ready so I could go take pictures of myself because I have no life, or friends. I just take pictures of everyone else, but when it comes to me, I have ZERO pictures of me being back in Canada from the last 3 months. It’s like I don’t exist, proof in pictures. I’m setting up the tripod and the camera to take photos and my dad keeps interupting and going, oh do you know how to do that? Don’t do that. Why are you doing that? So I just feel stupid and am watching him attach the camera to the tripod. Regardless the battery is almost dead so I’ll have 5 minutes to take photos and it’s just a waste of time doing it. He said the tripod I chose is different because the camera has to be connected perfectly or it will fall off, so I told him “connect it perfectly then.” so he just stopped helping me and told me to do it myself. So I left the camera on the tripod standing in middle of the hallway and walked away and it’s my intention to make him feel bad by not taking any photos at all.
I am trying to decide whether or not I should move out at the start of sept. Only thing stopping me is saving up for school… am I even going? I need to see that psychic.
one of my closest friends in going into her fourth year of nutrition so I asked her to help me lose weight, I have been sitting at this same horrible weight for like 3 years, and I would really like to lose it.
I think I am going to try and wake up earlier, drink more water, eat less calories and run for 20 minutes 5 times a week.
we’ll see how it goes?
I bought 20 dollars worth of david’s tea the other day, and I tried one of the flavours, and I work like 7days a week, so when I get home tonight my sister goes “oh the birthday cake flavour and the licorice flavour are weak” and I just stopped and looked at her, and I got really offended that she was drinking the teas that I paid for without me while I was gone without asking. And like normally I wouldn’t care so much, but i haven’t even tried them and she tried MY stuff first. So I freaked out a little bit, and she’s playing the hissy card and being all “fine I won’t drink any of it ever again” and I’m like “well you can but you have to ask first.” I don’t know I feel like a mega bitch but it’s still my stuff and she never asked who is right?
I am not a complete loner, but I don’t really have a friend who will drop anything to come chill with me, or who makes themselves avalible when I am. I hang out with like 1 person a week.
sometimes things seem similar to how they were in holland.
like not really having friends.
I need friends, I need to hang out with friends.
I had a day off for the first time in forever today because normally I work like 7 out of 7 days a week, and it was rediculous, there was no one to hangout with. I hung out with my sister, but family is not the same as friends. Working non stop is probably good so I don’t have time to realize my lonliness.
I guess if I did leave for university next year, it wouldn’t be the biggest deal ever then. No one except my family would care.
I think I am honestly going to a psychic soon, because seriously, I don’t know what the fuck my life is doing right now.
